You Never Know!!

About a year ago I was researching how to explain that life begins the moment of conception,  I have read many examples in the Bible including in one of my favorites Psalms 

     

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mothers womb.

                                                                                     Psalm 139:13

                                                                                                

But I wanted to be able to explain it to some who who was either a non believer or someone who just needed to understand it better.. I need to be able to explain it to a believer of the 2 misguided theories "it's not a baby yet" and " it's just a lump of tissue". My search led me to a YouTube video where Mike Huckabee interviews Kathy Ireland, and simply put she explains how a newborn baby does not look like a toddler but is still a living being, a toddler does not look like an adult but is still a living being and so on.. Just like a baby at 2 hours of conception does not look like a newborn but is still a living being! Obviously she goes into further detail, lol but that is the part that stood out to me the most! I will post the link below! 

I remember I couldn't sleep that night... Because for me, every revelation was a deeper understanding of my own experience.  What if I took my 5 year old Landon, to a Dr. that specializes in ending 5 year old lives? For whatever the reason...  How would you react?  Well the truth is that is what I did. Just with my five week old baby in my womb. I don't beat around the bush or try to sugar coat what I did.. And even though I am able to type this without crying right now doesn't mean my hands aren't shaking.  All I can say is thank you Father for your mercy! ... Where would I be without you! 

So again why talk about this over and over again... Because people need to hear it. Again 1 in every 2 1/2 women have had an encounter with an abortion. One of the women i went to church with, who shared the link to my blog on her Facebook page summed it up perfectly when she said don't judge a book by its cover.. She's right. She had no idea that I had dealt with this in my life,  and honestly a lot of people in my life still have a hard time believing it. But I did, so you never really know! 

I met a woman once who had 2 abortions in her past.. She is now a 50 some year old woman never married and has no children and I watched cry and mourn the family she should have had, the 2 children she aborted, the family she will never have on this earth, she said she never imagined she would never be married and childless.  My heart ached for her. Again... You just never know. 

Today I look at my children And I try, I try everyday to be the best mom I can be. I hold them, hug them, kiss them... I love talking to them and watching them grow into these wonderful little people.. I praise God for entrusting me to be their Mommy.. I am so grateful for the people God has placed in my life, especially those who have been Jesus with skin on for me. Who have never given up on me, and who make me strive to be the best mom I can be!

Again thank you for reading, I encourage you to comment, email, subscribe and share this blog. You never know who will read it and find out they are not alone, and that mercy is there for the taking, it is abundant and never failing! 

Stella

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GzisHrqZAbM&feature=youtube_gdata_player

My Why..

Thank you all so much for the awesome support and for the comments, that means a lot to me. But for those of you asking why... Here it is. I am not huge into statistics, in fact I very rarely keep up with them and you won't see me use to many of them, however for this post I will. Statistics show that 4 out of every 10 pregnancies are aborted, that is about 1 out of every 2 1/2. To put it another way nearly half of pregnancies are unplanned and over 22% of American pregnancies are aborted. Aren't those numbers scary? Just because something is legal does not make it right. 


All I can think about when I see these statistics is, if God Has a plan for each of our lives then what lives have been taken? How many future Doctors, mothers, fathers, spouses, teachers, preachers, and future presidents have been killed.. Maybe the reason that the cure for cancer hasn't been found is because the person that was destined to find it was aborted before they were even born?! How many lonely people do you know that feel like they never found the "one" for them, maybe it's because the one God had destined to be their husband or wife was aborted before the had a chance to live. 


 It hurts to think about all the moments, hugs, snuggles, kisses I miss out on. Or to think about what type of future my child would have had, what lives they might have touched, or who is the person they were supposed to marry that will never meet him or her... Even what grand children I should have had. This is a hard truth. I don't say any of this to make you sad, only to inform you of the one that loves us. I praise God that in Him I have found forgiveness and peace. Please know that if you have had one, we have a God that loves us, places people in our lives that will also love us, and that we can live a life full of abundant joy. 

My son Zia :)

 I struggled with the timing of this blog for the mere fact that to start it would mean I was putting myself out there for anyone who has ever had a part of my life to read! I refused to start this until my own children knew.. I didn't want them to find out through someone else.. So a year ago this month I told my children, as best as I could for the 2 younger ones of course lol. But my oldest now knows. He didn't reject me as I had imagined so many times, in fact he hugged me tight and cried with me because he hated the fact that I had hurt so long due to this. He is just as supportive as my wonderful husband! I also told my younger sister whom I love so much! 


 I just chose now to live my life helping others, in any way that I can. I pray God continue to give me boldness to speak about these things. Now I thank you again if you have read this far! :) but just a reminder this is a part of the blog but not the focus. Being a mom is one of the most beautiful things ever, and I plan on sharing that with you too. Again thank you so much! Please share this blog with all your friends because the truth is you never know who it may touch. Comment, follow, subscribe, and anything else this page offers lol! Have a good night! 

 Stella